I thought the first week of my new "leash on life" would be easy, I started a new career HELLO?!?! Can you say exciting? Except of course it wasn't, the job was fine, the people were fine, everything was fine, except me.
I woke up on Tuesday and felt a little depressed and anxious. Wednesday I was near hysterical, thursday I had off because my doctor told me to, and by Friday morning I was in my car hiding out and frantically trying to tell them "I Quit" while choking on tears.
So my first week was a bust, I'm now unemployed with no foreseeable end to that unemployment. I've haven't been like this in seven years, I've always had a plan, and now I don't know what to do except see the psychologist on Wednesday that the doctor referred me to.
And if worse comes to worse at least I'll have a little padded cell of my own...
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Its 2010!!! I know, I know it's been 2010 for two whole days now but honestly it only just occurred to me that its 2010!!!
Its 2010, seriously, where did the last year go? Alot of stuff happened last year, two shows, started and kinda dropped out of uni, quit my job of the last seven years, got a new job (starts Monday) got a new cat, got new stuff, had a car accident (minor) met heaps of new people, lost touch with others... it feels like all this stuff has happened and I've been too busy watching it to really take stock of any of it.
The year is gone and I feel like I missed it somehow...
In Two days time I'm going to be starting my new job. I'm also going to start taking notice of things. Take a moment of each day to look around at it all and remember the important things. Not get bogged down in all the little crap of life.
I think I need to do something. Like a promise, something like every week, I promise to do something important, go somewhere, see something, meet someone. And every week do something different. and then blog about it all here, to keep that promise. I don't want it to be 2011 and me wondering what happened in the last year...